Home Sweet Home...

 To update you guys...I've FINALLY moved into my new apartment.  I've lived here little over a week, now.  It's the best feeling in the world, to know that you have a roof over your head.  I was homeless for three weeks, ducking and hiding, sleeping at my day job after hours.  It wasn't fun AT ALL!!  It was so stressful, especially hiding my shame and pain from everyone.  At least now...it's over.

I still have to furnish the apartment.  I don't have a bed yet; not even a mattress to sleep on.  At least I was able to get my clothes and stuff being stored at the day job.  Now, I have all of my stuff in one place.  I can finally change clothes, now.  I can finally wash my clothes.  I can do the stuff that I normally do to feel comfortable.  I don't necessarily have a routine yet, but I'm getting there.  I don't have a TV in here (not that I really watch that much television), but I do have internet, so that helps.  definitely need a dresser, and a desk to work on.  Hoping to get my hands on a mattress sometime soon.  Kinda wish that I could have some of my stuff from New York shipped down here, but I don't want to risk them getting damaged in transit.  Oh, well...

Don't know if I'll be having a house warming party, since I don't have much stuff in here.  I don't have much food to offer, and I don't feel like coming out of pocket to have it catered, or anything like that.  I'm trying to save my money, as it is.  My rent is affordable, but I'm not making any serious bank by any means.  Maybe if people actually contributed to the writing career, I wouldn't feel so hesitant to spend any money. But, we all know how that goes, smdh.. 😕😕😕😕

 

The other good thing about the apartment is...it's close to my day job.  I'm also near several supermarkets.  Whatever I need is actually within walking distance from the new crib.  I'm actually not too far from where I was staying at the hotel, so it's not like I'm in a completely new and different part of the city, and have to learn my way around.  That works to my advantage.  The only thing that concerns me, is that they're building up the neighborhood, and doing a lot of construction.  I hope that doesn't jack up my rent by next year.  My salary is okay, even though I do get occasional raises, but I don't earn a whole hell of a lot of income.  If they raise my rent to a ridiculously high rate, I might have to go through this whole process all over again next year.  😢😢😢😢

You know what...?  Time to live in the present!!  I'll worry about that other shit when it comes.  Right now...I just wanna enjoy having my new apartment. 😁😁😁😁

Here's to having a roof over my head!!  Here's to having my own piece of mind!!  Celebrating having my new apartment!!

The Changing Tides....

 So....things are starting to get a liiiittle bit better.  I've got one more week before I can move into my apartment.  so, in essence...I'll be back to actually having a roof over my head, again.  Man...when I tell you that the struggle has been real, I ain't bullshitting you... 😢😢😢😢😢

I'm still ducking & dodging, hiding out and sleeping at the day job.  I'm still stressing, since I don't want to get caught before I can move into my new apartment.  I tried to rent a cheap ass hotel room for the weekend, and ended up paying only for one night.  These assholes wanted $135 for just ONE fucking night!!  It was a cheap ass, two-star hotel for crying out loud.  GTFOH 😡😡😡😡😡!!  It felt good to sleep in a bed again, though.  It also felt good to finally leave the premises of the fucking day job, and not have to worry about sneaking back in, or looking over my shoulder while sleeping there, hoping not to get caught.  I soooo cannot wait for when I move in!! 😌😌😌😌

Once I'm in the new place, I can concentrate on enjoying my life.  I can work on shooting episodes of "The Rough Draft", and working on my unfinished manuscripts.  Now that I have a fairly regular schedule, I can work on consistently posting episodes, and doing other things to boost my writing career.  I can worry about furnishing the apartment down the line.  i don't really need much; maybe just add a few more books that I want to read.  I can always find a way to use milk crates as a book shelf, or something.  Hey...you gotta learn to be frugal with your money, these days...  

It'll be good to not have to spend a shit load of money, just to maintain a roof over my head.  That fucking hotel that I was living out of was killing me, financially.  My new apartment is only a few hundred bucks a month, plus paying utilities, and maintaining my phone bill.  I don't think that they provide internet for my apartment, but the building does have their own wifi.  I might be able to get away with using it, for the time being.  I'll et you guys know how that works out... 

I need my life to get back to normal.  I feel so out of whack, it ain't even funny. Normalcy is the key.  Once i have a roof over my head, everything else should/will fall into place.  I still like being in Raleigh; I just need my life to get back into sync.  Maybe, after everything settles, I'll be able to enjoy my life a little bit more.  I don't like being in the mental and emotional space that I'm in, right now.  It's completely throwing me off my game, and making me miserable.  At l east i see some light at the end of this tunnel..

 

I'll keep you guys updated after the move.

 

Uhuru sasa, y paz....

Bringing that July Heat

 We have now entered into the month of JULY.  The year is now a little over half completed.  Where has the time gone...?  Is it the process of getting older, that time seems to fly by...?

So, the apartment seems to be coming along.  I should be able to move in within the next coming weeks.  This has been a bit of a headache for me, and will be glad when it's over with.  I know that I should be feeling excited to be having my own place again, but the struggles that I've been dealing with just to get to this point have really been taxing on my spirit.  It's been draining on me spiritually & financially, and I truly hope that it will be all worth it in the end... 😔😔😔😔😔

No publishing anniversaries to speak of in the month of July.  I haven't chosen to publish anything during this month, at this time.  Maybe, once I get me writing mojo back, I'll (hopefully) publish a book/novel during this month.  Other than the month of July, I don't have any publishing anniversaries for the months of September, October, or December either.

This year, I've decided to participate in the Smashwords Summer/Winter Sale.  It runs from July 1st through to July 31st.  For the entire month of July, my eBooks will be 50% off on their platform.  You can purchase any of my titles by clicking on  the link here:  

https://www.smashwords.com/profile/view/Kevin_AlbertoSabio

My eBook titles will be priced at $0.99 (99 cents) for the whole month.  You can afford 99 cents.  Stop being so mf cheap, and support the books & writing career. Fuck pressing a gd mf 'like' button; try actually financially supporting, for once.  Acting like my books are trash, or something...😡😡😡😡 

Also...my dinosaur ass finally got with the times, and now have an account with CashApp. If you want to financially support the career, and contribute to the funding of my web series "The Rough Draft", send your donations via CashApp to $KevinSabioKAS to help to sustain all that I do.  None of what I do is cheap, and everything I do is strictly out of pocket.  I have nobody funding me, and I barely make a living off of book sales; paperback OR eBook. 

Hoping to shoot an episode of "The Rough Draft" for the month.  Hopefully, once I get into my new apartment, I can start shooting a new episode, and have it uploaded soon.  With my new work schedule being more consistent, I'm hoping to up the ante a bit, and shoot more episodes per month.  Hopefully, that'll result in more views for the channel, and more more support for the writing career, and boost some sales.  Hopefully, this move will also help me to get my writing mojo back, and finally finish some of the manuscripts.

That's all for now.  Hope that you guys will support me.  I'll update you all on how the move goes, and my further literary progress.  Wish me lots of luck.  I'm gonna need it. 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏

Uhuru sasa, y paz.

Keep the fist raised!!!

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