Veneral (Spring) Equinox 2019

The Veneral Equinox has come and gone.  The day seemed to have lasted longer, as it is the official first day of spring.  It is a time for reflection, and for renewal.  We were blessed by a beautiful full moon on that night.  I was actually able to go out, and enjoy myself, and listen to some great music by some local artists.  Shout out to Delaware Music Network for making it happen!!  Y'all did your thing!!

Suffered yet another personal loss.  A childhood friend that I grew up with, passed away earlier this month.  It really sucks, because he was a really good, and close friend.  I had just seen him posting something on social media before his passing; a picture of he, and his father, and how much he loved and respected him. I knew that he had heart issues, but his passing hurts nonetheless.  This is the third such personal loss in recent months.  One was a close comrade/bredren in early fall of 2018, my mother recently passed on New Years, and now my peoples from childhood.  It's made me become really reflective of my own life.  It's given me a lot to think about in recent month, and is making me re-evaluate certain things in my life.  I'm kinda at a crossroads at the moment, rethinking my writing career, and other decisions that I've made...

Still struggling with promoting "F.U.R.I. of the People", as well as my other projects.  It gets a little sickening that I constantly push my shit, but get absolutely NO real support; maaaaaaybe a person, or two, but that's it.  With TEN published projects, I should be making SOME sort of a living off of my works...at least collectively.  Even doing the festival circuit seems like a fleeting endeavor.  Everything takes time and money, and I always have the issues of maybe having one, but not the other at a particular space and time; hell, sometimes I have neither.  Niccas can always click a gd "like" button, and leave you a bs congratulatory message...but, how many of them back it up by a) actually BUYING the book, b) leaving a review, c) encouraging their circle of peoples to support your books, and d) coming out to your appearances/book signings, etc.?

But....I digress....

I've pretty much narrowed down where I want to repatriate to.  In West Africa, I'm really feeling the country of Gambia.  Something about that country is striking a cord with me.  In the East Africa, I'm being pulled strongly to Tanzania.  I'm going to continue to do my research on both countries, and hopefully make the move out there by the end of 2020/early 2021.  That's my goal for right now.  Since I'm unattached, and have no children, i might as well make that move.  There's really nothing for me here in this country (save some family members), and I'm sick of what I'm seeing culturally, and politically.

I've recently shut down my "Chronicles of the Brown Black Fist" Facebook page; my Afro Latino activism fan page.  It wasn't getting any type of real support, and it was too time consuming trying to find content for the page.  Fuck it...it was more trouble than it was worth continuing to keep it up, and running. Niccas don't wanna support what I'm doing, or partake in the information that I'm sharing, why keep stressing myself out trying to maintain it?  Let them jump on the bandwagon of some kit kat Afro Latina millennial that's only content is about hairstylists, makeup, and guess-who's-an-Afro Latina-actress-that-we-didn't-know-was-Afro Latina? nonsense;  I've been in this activism game too long to waste my time on dumb shit.  As it is, I've been a bit disgusted with the current state of the so-called Afro Latino Movement for the last five years. Cats seem to be having a hidden agenda, and ulterior motives for their participation.  This ain't a platform for you to jump on, and exploit for your own personal gain.

Aaaaaaaaanyway.....

Ima do what Ima do.  I'll keep y'all in the loop as to my progress.  There is positive, as well as negative.  It's all about keeping the balance.  Later, peoples.

Keep the fist raised.